Loss in the shadows

Funny how sometimes you do something, and only afterwards realize that what you were actually doing was something totally different. I know this statement probably makes no sense. But I spent this morning roaming around Lake Chabot looking for my missing kitties. Someone on the street had recently trapped the cats on our street and... Continue Reading →

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What about Michaela?

In just a few months now, it will be the 30th anniversary of Michaela's kidnapping. Two months after that, it will be Michaela's 40th birthday. I am still kind of lost as to what to do about this. The normal, regular thing, tying yellow ribbons on the tree at the market? I don't know. I... Continue Reading →

Facing into the light, facing into the dark

The following is from my previous blog, and was originally published in July 2017. In nine days I will have finished chemotherapy. It has not been nearly what I’d feared it would be. The side effects were subtle. The nausea was fairly easily controlled with medication. I got one mouth sore, and my fingertips cracked... Continue Reading →

Marijuana to fight cancer

Hey there and happy 4/21 everybody, particularly those of you who celebrated 4/20 in the right spirit. I used to be a regular pot smoker when I was younger, but gave it up for most of the years after I became a mom, which is almost 40 years ago now. I took it up again,... Continue Reading →

2018, Let’s be (mostly) honest

Let's not mince words: 2017 was a shitty year. Well, not altogether I guess. Chemotherapy was very restful! So many days of napping! That is really a perfect picture for 2017. It was filled with curses that had their blessings, as well as blessings that occasionally felt like curses. It was kind of like all... Continue Reading →

Cancer as healer

I am so excited! Reconstructive surgery is officially set for January 17th. I am a bit apprehensive about the procedure itself. It's no short, quick fix, it's a DIEP flap reconstruction on one side and a reduction on the other, with three surgical sites, some large and complex. It involves transplanting arteries from my abdominal... Continue Reading →

What a week!

What is needed right here is a big eyes-crossed emoticon. But I'm too tired to find one, so you will have to make it up in your head. This has been one crazy week. On the bad side, my neck/shoulder pain has continued. I finally was able to figure out that it happens whenever pressure... Continue Reading →

Last chemotherapy treatment

I had my last chemotherapy treatment today. I made it through 20 long weeks! The staff and my nurses at Epic Care were wonderful, as always. As I finished my infusion they came out with pompoms and an award and gave me a cheer. It was embarrassing, but fun! The woman sitting next to me... Continue Reading →

Facing into the dark

In nine days I will have finished chemotherapy. It has not been nearly what I'd feared it would be. The side effects were subtle. The nausea was fairly easily controlled with medication. I got one mouth sore, and my fingertips cracked and peeled. I have a tiny bit of nerve damage in three fingertips on... Continue Reading →

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