Roads enchant me. My first romance with the idea of them was in the Road cycle of poems in Tolkien’s writings, beginning with:
The road goes ever on and on
Down from the door where it began
Now I must follow if I can
Pursuing it with eager feet
Till many paths and errands meet
And whither then?
I cannot say
When I chose to get tattoos it was Tolkien’s poetry that always inspired me, and in particular this series of poems. In the photo above, you will see the quote, “Still ’round the corner there may wait a new road or a secret gate.” This is a reminder to me that life is not over, that however long I have lived I haven’t quite reached my destination. I must stay open to the journey.
As a freshman in college, I wrote a paper on Nietzsche in which I expressed my personal interpretation that life is a road, and we have a destination, a “destiny,” although not in the sense of it being fated. In fact, I expressed the youthful, and perhaps arrogant, opinion that most people don’t reach it. Most people, I said, stop at the first comfortable spot where they sit and grow fat in the warmth of their fireplace. If they are lucky, the universe conspires against this resistance by shoving them off a cliff in order to force them back on the road. This paper has been put away in drawers, suitcases, and storage bins over the years, always to pop out from hiding at key junctures in my life, when I myself was getting pushed off a cliff.
My journeys have led me many places. They have led me through the deepest love, and the most grievous of losses. I have become for a large part defined by a single incident in my life, the kidnapping of my nine-year old daughter. They have led me through faiths and philosophies. They have left me craving something just beyond what I can know. Often they have left me confused. But what I tell my children is that as long as you keep putting one foot in front of another you will end up where you need to be. This website is a part of my journey, a piece of my road. I welcome you and invite you to join me on this journey, as a spectator sometimes, but also as a participant, as I share where I have been and where I am going, what has worked and what hasn’t quite. Let’s join hands and become a tribe of travelers seeking whatever lies just around the corner.
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